Monday, January 31, 2005
where did i go right
something about him gets to me.
i've already killed the wabbit. successfully. he never knew me, and it seemed like he didn't care. 'he was seeing but he wasn't exactly looking'. so yeah, why should i waste my time?
i'm happy now. thanks sean, alot alot. you're the first person to ever say that and i really appreciate it. i know how it feels to keep waiting for nothing to show up. then feel disappointed and stupid and worst of all, like crap. and then if you go away, you'll leave wondering maybe the person came 2 seconds after you've left.what i've learnt is that it rarely ever happens. because usually they never show up. talking to you last night was a great help, and i hope you know that i'll always be here allright? *hug* thanks.really.
but right now, i'm excited about many things to come. swimming later with nisa, singing my heart out, taking tons of photos and finally...
australia. it's my chance at getting a go at a new life and being a new person. yes, i know it sounds cliche but it's how i feel so i'll tell you.=)
you found me, when no one else was looking.
i guess that you saw what nobody could see.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: you found me -kelly clarkson
*shy that way
Sunday, January 30, 2005
do you want me
ladeeda. someone's happy today. allright moving on, today i have to get my lazy butt to cooking class again. steak/chickenchops/fish&chips is on the menu today. i make it sound like it's already my job-cooking. i wish! i shall attempt to bake something tomorrow...a treat for nisa!lol. technically it's nonsense since she's always getting to eat whatever i bake anyway. i have to roast the pork loin soon..cackles promised! *that's what the magazine said...*
oh anyways, i'm still head-over-heels in love with my kelly clarkson cd. trish wants to borrow it, sorry babe! you have to wait til we meet at school in feb..because right now i'd die without my daily dose of that cd! and since i'l see you everyday in feb..until forever til november...i can lend you my cd! and all the rest of my junk.
speaking about school...i have 14/15 days left here! better start packing and eating my fill...all the rojak and CHICKEN RICE! and all the desserts and whatever i'm used to eating.charsiew! hehe...pork ribs drenched in sweet sauce and everything else that i haven't learnt to cook yet. at least i can cook ngoh hiang and some other stuffs. okay...enough talk about food.
i better get back to reality. toodles.
twisted taste: lunch...
Mood music: do you want me-hilary duff
*shy that way
Saturday, January 29, 2005
songs for moods
here are some songs for people:
nisa: behind these hazel eyes-kelly clarkson
trish: i can't wait-hilary duff
meow: grauduation friends forever-vitamin c
hahaha...i just felt like doing that. i'm enjoying my kelly clarkson cd now. trestrestres fab! so anyway, i'm alone again today. everyone's got stuff to do, things to complete and people to meet. i've got an empty luggage and a whole wardbrobe of crumpled clothes. theyre too stuffed to be neatly ironed. haha, again, yes it's my fault. my new goal is to fix my shopping obsession and my 'need-to-buy-things' problem. lol. a very largggeeee problem but nonetheless, i'm gonna fix it! or at least make it not so large.lol. so til then...tooodles!
twisted taste: nothing.i want brekkie!
Mood music: behind these hazel eyes by kelly clarkson
*shy that way
Friday, January 28, 2005
songs & cds
hah! guess what i just realized, lindsy lohan must be pissing hilary duff a whole lot now. haha. i very embarrasingly have both their cds (got the pirated ones) and since hilary has been out singing for a longer time, lindsay would be the one doing the copying. they sound the same! same kind of music, with the electric guitars and the rock-ish pop-ish tunes... like, hello? weird much! both doing the same 'making their voices sound hoarse-r, sexier' thing. haha, very very sad. poor hilary. anyway, at least she's not a skank. but i would have to say lindsay can sing better than hilary, being fair and all.
anyways! kelly clarkson's breakaway cd is realllly awesome! totally love it, and green day's american idiot too. i haven't gotten around to listening to encore by eminem but i'd assume it's as good as his 'eminem show'. i liked that cd awhole lot! yeaap!...i'll update you when i do get around to playing it. lalala..til then, shopping awaits!
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: disconnected by lindsay lohan
*shy that way
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
angels or devils
like, tricia says, she thought a simple phone call or text would help to bridge the difference between her and her friends. their situations and lives are different now but maybe if they worked at it, it might be the same. but it didn't. well, trish, it didn't work for me too. so here we both are, feeling more alone than most people do. and isolated and ignored...until school starts. dont feel too bad.
lol, and i figured instead of asking people individually if they were free today, i'll write it here. IS ANYONE FREE TODAY? i'm so bored and tired.and sick of feeling alone. so tell me.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: angels or devils- dishwalla
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand upand I can't fall down
cause I'm somewhere in the middle of this
*shy that way
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
who's that girl
you know, everything was fine and dandy til you had to IM out of nowhere. it was JUST FINE AND DANDY but nooo, once again, you had to come ruin it all. as if feeling confused isn't enough, i feel it even more. alittle too much and then it hurts a lot more than it should. i shouldn't be feeling this, and better, i shouldn't have known you in the first place.
anyway, (takes a deep breath) i will get over it. we'll just have to have a second killing of you now wont we?
on a lighter note, i am going to cook my second dinner tomorrow. teriyaki chicken. ask me how it goes tomorrow allright?
twisted taste: dinner
Mood music: the getaway- hilary duff
who's that girl?
where's she from?
no, she can't be the the one
that you want, that has stolen my world
its not real, its not right
its my day, it's my night
by the way, who's that girl,
living my life.
*shy that way
burps
first off, happy birthday dajie! you're 23!!! and stll pretty and really funny! love you tons! *hug*
okay, i watched las vegas last night and you can say tht i've fallen in love with the show! lol, was eating bak kwa at the same time...talk about food temptation! chinese new year is just one big fat tempation. anyway, i should go learn cooking from my grandma, instead of all the desserts and all. but see, my evil side takes over when i see melted chocolate and dripping caramel and gooey toffee and all things that make you feel like a messy eater.
lalala...it's an addiction.
twisted taste: my soon-to-be-breakfast. sushi!
Mood music: angels or devils-dishwalla
*shy that way
never enough
i don't know if this would be counted as an obsession with blogging or writing. But somehow writing/ typing makes me feel better, like i'm letting off a bit of me and jot it down, like i'm being semi-transparent and telling myself how i honestly feel. so how do i honestly feel? you really want to know?
i feel fucked up. i never use that word but there, i said it. FUCKED UP! i know i despise that word. whatever. school is being a pain in the ass. decisions and money and what i want to be when i grow up. i want to be so many things but i'm being restrained by the one damn thing in the world that never fails to crush every hope or dream any one ever has. REALITY. the cruel thing of being asian and then being stupid. i'm not being ungrateful. i just dont like myself very much now. whats to like?
i can't cook for nuts, i can't even decide on a haircut. my ez-link card is stupid and i haven't even gotten my sister's birthday present, and it's her birthday tomorrow. ocean avenue & a decade under the influence is running through my head.
so i want to cook. i want to fall in love. i want to help the world. i want to be more considerate. i want to be everything else but me. no that's not true. i like half of me, the better half.
I WISH YOU'D JUST DAMMIT SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: never enough- papa roach
*shy that way
Monday, January 24, 2005
do you want me
lalala, my love for taking back sunday has escalated to the same amount i have for race the sun and sugarcult. They're seriously awesome, like i dont know, the music, the band, and energy. it's enough to get you on a sugarrush.
talking about sugar rushes, i had 3 today! one being meeting my bestie for CHICKEN RICE. i will so miss chicken rice when i'm away. chicken rice chicken rice chicken rice. it should be a universal delicacy. CHICKEN RICE! and the next sugar-rush would be me, baking my lemon sponge, right! it turned out harder than expected the first but still tasteful, the second time it got too sour. sorry for the overload of the warm lemon syrup! and the third time (now) is like.. a cloud. if i may say so myself. a soft, buttery-lemony cloud that's denser than usual sponges so it tastes a little like a cheesecake. ooooh.. talk about seductive food!
ps: i love my hello kitty apron.please dont die of laughter.
twisted taste: lemon sponge cake with warm lemon syrup
Mood music: a decade under the influence- taking back sunday
I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall;
And a love whose burning light
Will warm the winter's night
That's all,
That's all.
*shy that way
Sunday, January 23, 2005
swimming
hello! i feel good today, like i want to be outside! in the heat! and SWIMMING. please note how damn rare this is.hehe. bought a tiny suitcase to carry on the plane so yeah. anyway, i'm happy that i'm emotional baggage free. i think this is all working out, like hello? how bad will it be to be emotionally attached here while you're THERE. lol. i know. officially 3 more weeks til i leave...i think. oh well! i'm gonna bounce on out now. tooodles babes!
twisted taste: japanese food, wakatori to be exact
Mood music: daddys little defect- sugarcult
*shy that way
Saturday, January 22, 2005
in all honesty, i think i'm allergic to junkfood. i had an overload of sugar now and instead of a sugarhigh, i feel heavy and blah. call that weird, but yeah. anyway the last thing i need to do is to affect everyone around me, i think i should go to bed!
i feel like the grinch...a big greeen grouch. big as in, i just described it.. coz of the junk. green as in jealous. lol. yesyes, once again, my green-eyed monster decides to make an unexpected appearance. and grouch, well thats pretty much self explanatory. (grins)
lalala, lets make this whole thing a littlw weirder. i wore green today AND i bought a green sweater for school. ta-dah! talk about surreal.
twisted taste: fizzy fish
Mood music: since u been gone by kelly
*shy that way
Friday, January 21, 2005
anywhere but here
lets all laugh at vic because she likes silly music like hilary duff's. haha, okayokay, i still think she can't sing (if she tried out for american idol, she wouldn't get in), but the lyrics and melodies of the songs get to me. somehow maybe having a 17 (18) year old sing songs about normal things seem more 'real' than relating to a 20-something singing the same song. understand? (lol) i guess you do. anyway, its like, there are always happy songs like 'party up' and 'why not' to get you all cheery for the day and be ready to take on anything. then you have 'so yesterday' to get you through a crap time...and always, my current favourite, 'the getaway' when you're confused and need to know someone is/was going through something similiar. i mean, you would have to go through it before you can write about it right? (ok, i know her song-writer wrote it la!) ...so.understand? lol...
anyway! imma make my ra-ra skirt today. im not sure about it.but i'll try. my mom's adament that i wont get down to making it and will MOST PROBABLY fail. but i'll tryyy...TRYYY!
twisted taste: gyoza
Mood music: where did i go right-hilary duff (lol, again.)
A roller coaster ride
I may never work it out
Here's the brand new me
Skates around and floats on air
I'm a sight to see
Rainbow colors in my hair
*shy that way
Thursday, January 20, 2005
dye
heyy...lets see, the dye-ing issue is here. MY HAIR IS UNEVELY COLRED.how brill is that. hahah. then again, me and dajie tried sharing the dye since we both had short hair but apprently i have so much hair that it's unevely colored since there wasnt enought o 'INTENSELY' slop on the color. and like, since her hair was already brown from her previous dye-ing, the color got on easier. so she's going to buy me dye again later..to fix it.lol. other than that.. i have told myself that my hair HAS to be pink/purple once in my life. lol. stop laughing. i wanted a brown-pink.but yeahh..whatever.. it shall be orange for now.
i think i shall attempt to make a ra-ra skirt... i've got the tutorial already.
twisted taste: brekkie...
Mood music:The getaway- hilary duff (HAHA)
*shy that way
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
just a girl
i'm..contented and happy. i think good chicken porridge helps! then i have the aftertaste of a bite of chewy chocolate cookies in my mouth...
whee! so anyways, im going out today...get something nice and BE HAPPY! it's a terrible thing-retail theraphy. not that i actually need theeraphy..seeing that i'm somewhat fine right now.
you know people don't really believe in PMS, then guys go on and say how ridiculous it is to blame everything on PMS. sometimes it gets me totally irritated because it's so darn obvious that they'll say that...seeing that they have no excuse to explain their bad tempers while we do. lol. but in
ALL honesty, it really
DOES exist. trust me...anddd it's not a very good thing but we go through it. lol. i can safely say that mine's over. i think. HAHA.
unless someone steals my fizzyfish.=)
well i know i get PMS when i start thinking that life is sad without having eye candy and (or) a boyfriend.yesyes, so unlike me. so therefore hah! see, told you it existed. anyway,
pink lipgloss buying awaits! sorbet lippy...
sounds good enough to eat.
twisted taste: chicken porridge
Mood music: just a girl-no doubt & friends of the enemy-no use for a name
*shy that way
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
princes
happy ever afters...
so i'll just sit around, do my normal routine. and let you hit me just when i least expect it allright? hehe.
HURRY AND COME! and then i shall wait for you to give me my first real kiss. lol.
til then, chewy chocolate chip cookie baking awaits.
twisted taste: milo
Mood music: some song off the prince and me soundtrack.
*shy that way
Sunday, January 16, 2005
blah!
i am one VERRRRYYYY a-nnoyed girl. blah! i feel so blah.like blahblahblah. and everything everyone is saying is jsut doing one thing, pissing me off even more. okay, i wont go on because then itd be just plain mean and evil. and im not like that..i think. hell, im jsut frustrated and irritated and i want to be left alone but i dont. i want to be alone but i dont.i want to scream so loud and possibly, strangle someone but, i can't. i think i shall go eat fizzyfish. as opposed to what some think, food is the cure for everything, oh except when you feel like puking, like now. I AM SO SICK IN THE MIND.. why do i keep wanting to puke everything out. honestly, the only thing stopping me from being bulimic is the fear of my teeth corroding. other than that, blah.
twisted taste: nothing, god im so full i feel like throwing everything out
Mood music: nothing
*shy that way
so yesterday
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
that's all i have to say, to tell you what im feeling right now. if you know what's going on then you'd understand these lyrics and what i'm trying to say. if you dont, i just need you to know, that i'm done looking back, and i'm done thinking i was only a joke to them. a bloody big fat joke. i;m no longer fat, and i'm no longer stupid. right on.
twisted taste: brownies with chocolate fudge sauce
Mood music: you wish - lalaine
*shy that way
Saturday, January 15, 2005
satisfaction
You can't keep me locked out.
I'm not scared to find out.
You weren't meant to spend a lifetime waiting.
lets talk about what im satisfied about today (warning: it consists mostly of food cravings being satisfied)
1:
i got FIZZYFISH!: thanks chris!lol, he came all the way just to deliver it to me. he and dajie look cute together!=)
2:
i can fry a FAB ommelette: went for cooking class, got burnt by the bubbling oil, esp when it splatters coz i was deep frying the egg and the oil burnt my face (yes, it's painful!) but like they say, no pain no gain. somehow i dont feel so scared of deep frying too, coz even the top chefs know that splattering of oil is as unpredictable as the rain, it comes whenever it does. so yeah, it's another 'adventure' in the world of cooking, and i LOVE it. i think its a passion and it's like falling in love. it makes me happy and floaty and all sorts of fluttery.
i'm in love! let's talk about the ommelette, it's got this super crisp lacey sides all around it, like a pretty border of golden brown and this tantalizing melty centre. like one of the ladies at class said, like a souffle egg. totally pretty! and sinfully yum.
3:
I got goreng pisang! (lol): my dad bought it for me and it was soooo brilliant! they used the bigger bananas this time, not the usually small type. the bigger ones are sliced vertically and so it tastes sweeeeeter. therefore, its even yummier!
4:
I got my other cooking classes booked: done with the registering, and all. so therefore, that's good, instead of my usual procrastinating self. hah!
5:
I met nice people all day!: it was like a good karma thing, i dont know. but allday i met nice people and received as many smiles as i gave out. i didnt miss the bus today, and the bus driver was nice enough to return my 'thankyou' smile. and at class, the old auntie who was like the teacher's assistant, was really nice, and smiled alot. so did the other students there. ALL SMILEY! hehe
twisted taste: green kueh with dessicated coconut cooked in gula melaka
Mood music: talk radio- thetrackrecord
*shy that way
Thursday, January 13, 2005
fizzyfish
I WANT FANTASTICALLY FIZZY FISH FROM MARKS&SPENCER.
im grrumpy and irritated. I'm annoyed and bummed. don't talk to me.
but,
you can buy me fizzyfish then we'll talk about it
GIMME FIZZYFISH!
twisted taste: i want fizzyfish from marks&spencer
Mood music: nothing
*shy that way
dumdeedum
some people...(frowns)
nevermind.
oh well, i have a blast today! was awesome fun at peiyuin's place. went to malaysia with my mommy and off to peiyuin's home. and i got to eat glutinous rice for brekkie! that's majorly fab, good company and good food. then i told her i wanted to get dvds so off we went to citysquare. anddd.. I LOVE CITYSQUARE. first off, bought 5 dvds, which is awesome fun because i get to fill my day up with stuff to do and theyre mostly chick flicks so trish, you BETTER come and watch them allright, we can have cupcakes and jam too. oooh, not forgetting the TEA! how fun...just like an english tea party. lol. bring a sunhat. then, after much contemplation, i bought my playboy wallet which is tres tres tres chic et mucho cute. then went around getting peiyuin's stuff and went to have lunch. she treated, and it was SOOO GOOOOOODD.
mom picked us up and we headed out to singapore, coz she was going to auntie eliza's place. but on our way out, we bought goreng pisang, mee goreng, nasi lemak, curry puffs and some other kuehs. my fave is the green one which is filled with coconut cooked in gula melaka. i forgot the name but can you say YUMMYYYY!!!
all right, after i threw up before dinner, i went to eat dinner and then everything sorta went downhill a bit. now im itchy and frustrated and annoyed but luckily, trish is keeeping me sane, along with lione. i swear, i'll just die soon if i dont keep sane. tomorrow's gonna be a busybusybusy day. but i like busy, least i dont get bored and yell at others.
twisted taste: vanilla yoghurt icecream
Mood music: nothing
*shy that way
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
burpday
happpy birthday niccccknicnicnicnicnic!!! hehehe, you're a year older you..oldie. anyways, had toni romas today which was MUCHO fab.yum, love cheesesticks and potatoe skins smothered in bacon,cheese and SOURCREAM! swear to god, that's the most evil thing.
uncle kokweng called, reassured me that my mouth is fine now and the infection is gone and that whatever i am experiencing now is.. normal. can you say 'yay!' oh, and i met nissy today for chicken rice, courtesy of her mom, and it was grool! and rockin'. and i loved it alot, expecially since i got to drink bandung, it rocked even more. ahha and! her mom treated me to lunch, that was the ultimate nicest! then nisa, seeing how comp0letely tired i was because of the evil flu, she decided to go home with me and so while she sat on the train listening to her radio, i slept. thanks girlie, i needed that nap alot. its these little things that make u the bestest ever. really. appreciate it aiight!! hehe.
came home, did nothing but had fun, doing random things like watching that's so raven and laughing at how chelsea is SO LIKE NISA (hehe) and that was fun too. awesome time, and she got to eat peanutbutter&chocolatechip muffins with chocolatefrosting. she loved it (i think). i can always count on her to make me feel like a brilliant chef, really. so again, thats a plus. i love you soooo much!! so dont ever give up on yourself.
that's basically my day, slept, ate, hungout, slept, ate...ATE...and soon i shall sleep. curse you flu!
i love my little sister!
i'm thankful for many things today, and most importantly, i'm thankful for realizing that no matter what happens, i will always ALWAYS have my family. and that's all i ask for. happiness & health for all the ones i love.
lovelovelove makes the world go round.
and treeeesh, cheer up babe, sometimes life seems all sorts of mes. so cheerup!
twisted taste: toni romas
Mood music: nothing, cept the weird music from the tv
*shy that way
Monday, January 10, 2005
flu & chicken rice
eew, i hate falling sick. my flu has now progressed onto a blocked nose. which sucks ALOT more, seeing the fact that I CAN'T BREATHE!!! oh well, woke up at 8, took actifed and panadol flu and popped back to sleeep, meeting nise later so i can't sleep my life away til tonight's dinner. but im not complaining, I LOVE CHICKEN RICE! hehehe. i feel like i'm melting, because my whole body's all tired and blah. maybe chicken rice will help. super chicken rice!! *goes mad* i think it's the flu talking. dammit.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: you had me-joss stone
*shy that way
Sunday, January 09, 2005
so runaway
Feeling a little blah and a little peaceful, like zen-ish. didn't do much today, maybe a little baking and a little frosting making and a little drawing and probably a touch of reading. i spent all morning (which was like 1130 til 1230) reading magazine articles on how to be confident and how to be happy and whatnot. i kinda rummaged through my stack of mags and picked out the ones with their 2 cents worth on being a better/happier person. i dont know if it works but it sure makes u feel a whole lot better, especially when you feel six feet under. so now i'm 4 feet under? oh well.
anyway, on to a cheerier thing, i have finally been successful at making a yummy frosting! yippeeee. it's totally yum, like the betty crocker chocolate frosting you get from the tin. it's tres simple and totally awesome. i just ate parts of the frosting because i couldn't resist it. hehe. i love frosting! chocolate frosting.yummy! *goes high on frosting*
ok, back to being all peaceful. you know the mags keep saying 'be yourself' and be who you really are. but what if you never feel good enough, for anyone.
then what? tell me if you know,
because i don't.
twisted taste: jackfruit
Mood music: to icarus with all sincerity- race the sun
*shy that way
Saturday, January 08, 2005
changed
Nise talks about her new self and how she's feeling alot more positive. which is mucho fab! and i'm proud of you babe! anyway, i remembered the time when i wasn't aloowed to eat anything with sugar, wheat and soy innit , that included fruits. and i was practically dying from withdrawal of these things. it was horrible, like fainting was the best way out but i was pretty determined to get through it and prove something to myself, that i really had determination in me and i did. i got through it and now each time i have to do the same thing again, it gets alittle easier. so i'm going to apply that determination to my life now. to prove, once again, that i am a determined and strong-willed (though incredibly stubborn) person.
i know, it kinda sucks, stopping yourself from doing things you want to, but i know in the long run, it's good for me. at least i'd be free of emotional baggage. trust me, the luggage i'm going to lug up to australia is heavy enough without the emotional thrash. so i can't say what i want to, because the words dont fit right, so this determination is the only thing that's going to help me.
that's all
twisted taste: vanilla yoghurt icecream
Mood music: i can't wait -hilary duff
*shy that way
Friday, January 07, 2005
you name here
Plan: Kill the wabbit is offically succeeding, i dont know what i'm doing exactly to make it totally 100% successful but i know that i have 2 very important people that are helping me. so yeah, soon it'd be wabbit-who? hehe
i love the bands race the sun and straylight run. they're awesome! I guess i really am learning to listen to all sorts of music, even papa roach and finch. so anyway, today i feel excited about cooking class because the last time i went for lessons, everyone stared at me funny because they were like 'you look so young and you cook?' haha. i don't know if thats a compliment or not, but i remember sister mary clarence ( from sister act 1 & 2) saying to rita, 'if you wake up and all you can think about is singing, you're meant to be a singer' or something like that. well, most of the time, i wake up thinking what can i bake/cook today? hahaa, so maybe it's the obsession talking or maybe i really DO love cooking. both my grandmothers are amazing cooks, well i never got to taste the cooking of one of my grandmas coz she passed away before i could, but i bet it was fantastic, why else would my dad and everyone else remember her cooking as the best. yup!
Go east on Sunrise Highway
Turn left at Carmen's Avenue
Go right at the first stoplight
And I'll be outside waiting for you
Ohh, I'll be waiting for you
Your name in lights, it was only a matter of time
Your name in parenthesis, you cant see
Coz after this mess, I guess you bet
That I'd collapse before you do
Well maybe that's true, or maybe its not at all
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: your name here (sunrise highway) by Straylight Run
*shy that way
Thursday, January 06, 2005
deedum
i officially have something to do tomorrow, go for my cooking class! right, my first attempt at offically trying to cook something OTHER than dessert. hehe, i'll let you know how it goes. anyway, i watched a cinderella story again today. yesyes i know.. *groan* but these are signs that i'm about to die from boredom. other signs include laughing about nothing and sleeping from 2 til 7. i HAVE to find something to do.
good news, i have finally found the perfect brownie recipe (when i say perfect, i meant that the flavour is awesome), texture wise, its way too hard for my liking and dry. reasons could be that
(1) i used smaller sized eggs this time
(2) i used a tad too much flour because i dont have a measuring cup for thirds so maybe my estimation was off
(3) i baked it for too long (my bad)
oh well, i'll try it again and this time i will SUCCEED! hehe, yupyup.if i may say so myselof, it tastes a tad like mrs fields and i can conclude that i dont like hershey's cocoa powder, i thik vanhouten is the better, in terms of flavour. thats my 2 cents worth.
apart from my obsession with cooking (which is a good thing), i think i'm making brilliant progress on plan: kill the wabbit. hehe, then again, it always helps when you can avert your attention from one person to other people, like my dajie! .and focus on other things like being bored and thinking what other dvds you wanna get. yesyes, i am a brilliant mind (yea right.)
twisted taste: fried rice
Mood music: welcome back -Mase
*shy that way
wab
imagine how it went from :
intrigue to
excitement to
crushing to
falling to
disappointment to
anger to
blatant dislike.
i think i'm better off, alot better off, i couldn't even be proud of who i was, but even nisa, his friend, can give me reasons why i don't even want to contemplate liking him, there's got to be a problem with him and not me. yup.
twisted taste: brownies
Mood music: chemical x
*shy that way
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
10 things i hate abt you
You've found hope
You've found faith,
Found how fast she could take it away.
Found true love,
Lost your heart.
Now you don't know who you are.
She made it easy,Made it free,
Made you hurt til you couldn't see.
Sometimes it stops,
Sometimes it flows,
But baby that is how love goes.
You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
It's a secret no one tells;
One day it's heaven, one day it's hell.
It's no fairy tale;
Take it from me,
That's the way it's supposed to be.
You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
You laugh, you cry, no one knows why
Behold the thrill of it all...
You're on the ride
You might as well
Open your eyes
You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
Even angels fall
Even angels fall
even angels fall by jessica riddle
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music:hell-sugarbomb
*shy that way
hello
I'm suddenly hopeful
Whenever you're in sight
I talk about you all day
Whisper your name at night
(smiles) i told nisa one day i'll go wabbit-who? i maybe im getting closer to it. he makes me laugh. haha and i like having supportive friends around! imma bake brownies tomorrow, new recipe, and it's with creme anglaise..sounds super yum..i know.hehe.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: hello-sugarbomb
*shy that way
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
totally crushed. i wish whales wouldn't be on the verge of extinction, especially the orcas. this isnt fair,
it just isnt.
twisted taste: nasi lemak
Mood music: i can't wait -hilary duff
*shy that way
no school=boredom
okay, i thought having no school was probably the best thing that ever happened, apart from a chocolate buffet and obviously, airconditioning, but now i'm dead bored and you want to know whats funny? it's only the second day of school! please refrain from saying 'haha, told you so'. so anyways, i think i'll go over to chris's place to teach him his maths today and bring him the sugar cookies, i can't possibly finish them all anyway. and i'm technically suppose to be on a diet but we'll see about that. haha
so yesterday was not the bestest of days for me, mainly because my hopes came crashing six feet under but nevermind, knowing me and my stupid sparkly self, i'll start building them up again but this time, on someone better. ahahah. now..
we'll just have to find that someone now wont we. speaking of which, i felt like i was absolutely missing out on something when i went to pjc yesterday to meet nise. like there were students (all the j1's) there and like, they were making new friends, going through anew stage of their life yada yada and i was going through something new too (like not having school when everyone else did and this time, not because i was bad or suspended but because i was goood) albeit being boring. but yeaahh.. as i quote lione(again) its just another 2 years of uniform wearing that im missing out on. lol
oh well, anyone know where i can get pirated dvds? i'm seriously BORED and
seriously need a movie fix. dont tell me malaysia though, i doubt i can go there alone.
Everybody has their day
Where things just seem
To go their way
An angel's gonna
Smile on me
When it's meant to be
'Cause anything is possible
No matter how incredible
You never know who I might meet
On this crowded street
I can't wait for the time to come
When I'll be shining like the sun
I can't wait
I haven't got forever
And I haven't got all day
Oooh, I don't want my world to stay the same
So where's a magic moment
To carry me away
twisted taste: colgate mouthwash (no, i didn't eat it!)
Mood music: emotional-diana degarmo
*shy that way
Monday, January 03, 2005
i'm so disappointed, totally disappointed. i expected much more from a friend, maybe a simple 'hello' but i guess i'm not even worth saying hi to? nah'allright, i'll get my fill of hellos and smiles from other people who think me worthy at least. what did i expect.like lione says, the greater my expectations, the faster and harder i fall. right on dude.
apart from that, i had a blast with nisa today and it was not coz we shopped or anything, we didnt get to buy anything, but coz it was just fun walking around and chatting. just simple fun! hehe, anyways, i'm tired, from baking the sugar cookies and tired from walking around and tired from feeling disappointment. but i cant complain much about today, it was pretty slammin'.
twisted taste: currrry
Mood music: anywhere by here-hilary duff
*shy that way
Sunday, January 02, 2005
oh god, i feel like such an idiot in a good way. like i'm not hating myself or anything just feeling a bit silly. hahaa. i can't believe i was so blind, but nevermind, blindfold's off, and now i know. which is a big relief. (laughs to myself) all's much better now, realization is pretty darn good.
i just watched a cinderella story on dvd just now, it was allright, feel-good type of movie and it made me believe that good things and happy ever afters do happen i guess. and i will have my time for prince's and my fairytale. yup, my time will come. nisa always says i should wait and never rush into things and she's right. i never really rushed or wanted my fairytale
now, i just felt it was so unfair that i had to wait and wait and
wait, but it does make alot of sense i guess. so yeah, i'll wait and until then, i'll keep having my make-believe stories and stuff like that. my love-life is basically like sam's (hilary duff in a cinderella story) . she waited and probably focussed on other things and i guess she got her happily ever after. hahaha, yeaaah!
until i have another emotional breakdown, i'll keeeep
waiting.
I know I sound insane, like I'm playing games
'Cause all I really want is you
But there are some things a girl won't do
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: we believe-good charlotte
*shy that way
sometimes
oooh, 2005 is here and so i'll wish all of you guys a HAPPPY NEW YEAR!
spent new yrs eve at batam so therefore, explaining why i didnt update. it was allright, the boat trip there was like facing some fear of mine and in this case, i would say i've faced it and i never wanna face it ever again. the trip back (which i took today) ended up in me throwing up. not a very good thing. the boat ride was scary and the sea was hella rough and choppy and eew, the ending , where the boat just listlessly drifted to the deck. oh god, that was the worst, i cannot describe it.
the new year's eve party/countdown was kinda ruined by the unexpected guest-the rain. it was pouring and since the party was like a luau-type, it meant we got drenched in our pretty party clothes and the food had to be rescued. the place was done up so beautifully, with the pretty lights shaped like stars and all but i guess at least we got the chance to see it in all its glory before the rain chased us into shelter. the entertainment was basically made up of singing, it was all oldies and i danced but it wouldn've been more fun if they played like, britney or something. oh well, maybe i will celebrate next time, with younger people. hehe. there was this singer dude who sang really nice, like michael buble and he was kinda cute, only 17.hehe.
but lets talk about what i learnt during the trip. first off, i dislike beach resorts alotalotalotalot. i know it sounds so prissy but im really not the 'sand-in-my-shoe' type of girl. i love the beach and all, but i can't live with sand in the bathroom and dirt and grime-like stuff. i'd rather stay at home-seriously. haha. so a day out at the beach is awesome with watersports and swimming but after that, this girl neeeds to go home-CLEAN HOME.hehe. yeaah. oh well, my mom is beginning to nag alot. she keeeps going on about sleepingtime and all that. its so... suffocating sometimes. but today was aiight-when the wind blew into my face today, it was bliss. perfection.
Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
twisted taste: banana chips
Mood music: emotional-diana degarmo
*shy that way
