I worry, I weigh three times my body
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

This is my window to the world,
and i can see heros rise and fall.

Victoria

seventeen
the quiet things that no one knows
skribblezndoodlez@hotmail.com

the Used
story of the Year
matchbook Romance
the click Five
jimmy eat World
all American Rejects
the Veronicas
skye Sweetnam
lisa Loeb

Saturday, May 28, 2005
fragile

Innocent, that's my way
Don't know where I am
Catch my breath,
can't think straight
Gotta make a plan

But I get butterflies
Water in my eyes

'cause I'm fragile when I hear your name
Fragile when you call
This could be the nearest thing to love
And I'm fragile when I hear you speak
Fragile feeling small
This could be the closest thing to lov

eShake and sweat,
wipe my brow
Scared of what's to come
Lie awake, toss and turn
Am I the only one

But I get butterflies
Water in my eyes

'cause I'm fragile when I hear your name
Fragile when you call
This could be the nearest thing to love
And I'm fragile when I hear you speak
Fragile feeling small
This could be the closest thing to love

But I get butterflies
Water in my eyes
When I think of you
I could break in two

'cause I'm fragile when I hear your name
Fragile when you call
This could be the nearest thing to love
And I'm fragile when I hear you speak
Fragile feeling small
This could be the closest thing to love

wheee. describes everything perfectly! anyways, today is my splurge day.hahahaha! or as ry says, i spend well! lalalaaa... well, it's pretty decent if you look at the amount of stuff i bought with the amount of money i had. i dont feel too bad, just bad enough to abstain from shopping until the mid yr's are over! wheee.then all hell breaks loose.=)

delle just told me that i have NO paper on friday. whoohooo! sadly, she does and so does trish so yeaaah! no morning shopping for me, but when the afternoon comes...now THAT'S a totally different story. hehh.=) i just love shopping.lovelovelove it!=) i sound so insanely happy. well, that's because I AM!

lalalaaaa..mommy and meiz is on their way to ENGLAND.which is soo tres unfair.but there's nothing i can do...well sorta. i can indulge in retail theraphy.WHICH I DID! so there, now you know why i had the urge to splurge. =) what a cute little rhyme. you may quote me. hehh.i'm a happy girl

you know i want you more more more...(winks)

twisted taste: shortbread with jam (stilll...)
Mood music: fragile-kylie minogue

*shy that way

Friday, May 27, 2005
weakness

but when my weakness takes over...

i hate you for making me cry
i love you for making my heart skip a beat
hate you for letting me drown
love you for giving me a reason to float
when all this falls through,
there's something i've got to tell you
baby, i've got a love-hate relationship with you

the house is like a mad disco now. my sister is blasting her music soo loudly and so am i.to fight her chinese music.hahha.it's quite a ridiculous sight. how fun. oh well...

twisted taste: jam shortbread
Mood music: we belong together by mariah carey

*shy that way

Wednesday, May 25, 2005
cant get you out of my head

i am sleeepy.

lol, okay that will kinda sum up what this entry wil be about. i am relieved today. i had no stress of essay writing or anything of that sort.though i should-considering the fact thaaattt my exams are coming. i'm kinda bummed about it.but not really.i liked term 2 sooo much better than term one. everything seems more...routined? lol.like i know what to do-finally.=)
on to the emotional stuff-what do people actually do online? because im seriously bored. no one to chat to and no websites to visit. like, i mean i COULD read blogs but some of them just bore me. so how come people can stay online for hours on end and NOT get bored of it. please enlighten me-for i now have nothing to do. and after my ironing disaster (i wont talk abt it) im staying away from housework for a bit.haha
excuses. excuses.

so tell me, how do you know if someone feels the same way you do?

twisted taste: soy choc.
Mood music: can't get you out of my head -kylie minogue

*shy that way

not todaay

tomorrow is a different dayyy...
anyways! today was supposed to be happy-i guess it did fine. it's the moon.i swear. fine if you dont believe me-but it's TRUE! hahaaha. yes. =)
anyways, i overslept today.i heard the damned alarm go off, i slammed it off and went back to sleep. usually i wake up like 5 minutes after that, but i guess i must have been totally dead sleepy because i slept until 35 mins later before i was like shooot! and jumped out of bed.but! seeing that i have never skipped class since i;ve arrived, i decided to-today.hahaahah! but good for me still because the lecture turned out borring and nothing in relation to the text so, lucky me.=)

i miss meow alotalot and nise and jolynnnn.=) i hope i get to go bacck!

bought something todaay.. i wont say what.but i should STOP SHOPPING.i ought to be sued.=) hehe.

twisted taste: chicken rice
Mood music: tomorrow-avril lavigne

*shy that way

Monday, May 23, 2005
falling

wanna know how you feel
wanna know what is real
i wanna know everything

lets see. neverending essay writing, feeling that i shouldnt have come here in the first place and then getting tangled up in my own overreacted emotions. life is so smooth. but oddly enough, i like it! adds some zing and spice. lol.lordy i sound like im promoting some burger or something. hmmm.

oh well, i'm off to sydney next yr. wont be hanging around melb.which is sad because i'll miss hottty tons and tons. my posse. but i've always got my new even-more independent life to look forward too. so many things in life i've yet to do, and i can't wait. i was just thinking..about how my salary will be cut up by taxes, rent, bills and all. it's not that exciting afterall.

twisted taste: apple cake that i baakkkeeedddd
Mood music: fall to pieces-avrl lavigne

*shy that way

Friday, May 20, 2005
alone and crying

how do you expect me to feel?
how the fck do you really expect me to feel?
WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS TO ME.

intuition says i should stay away. but i can't and i KNOW i won't. why the hell am i so stubborn.

the traffic in my brain driving me insane
i've got to get away.
twisted taste: cheesecake
Mood music: a girl can dream - PYT

*shy that way

Thursday, May 19, 2005
love

ohnooo..
i think i'm crushing hard.
oh well, no point dwelling in that. i'm stressed! there-i said it.hahaha i like i have no control over what i finish. like my work. which is not a good thing. because i thrive when im in control.i think.hahaha
oh well. quick update-it's cold out now.cooollddd.lol. thought josh is like never ever cold and me and mich just die of freeeze. adelle and trish r prolly the only girls i know who have a high cold-tolerance. hehh. good for me and mich.we get to steal their sweaters! lalalaaaa.=)

i miss you nise!!!

twisted taste: vitamin c
Mood music: hero-mariah carey

*shy that way

Sunday, May 08, 2005
born with bad timing

i think im born with extremely bad timing and am horribly terrible at having the right timing. and a rotten selfesteem to go along just fine. perfect balance.

im sodeaimsodeadimsodeadimsodeadimsodead.

i'm uncovering things about the people i know that i dont wanna know. i'm finding out things that i'm not ready to know. perfect is overrated. happytogether is impossible.

fear less; hope more
whine less; breathe more
talk less; say more
hate less; love more
and all good things will be yours

twisted taste: nutella
Mood music: you're so last summer- tbs

*shy that way

incomplete

incomplete
i tried to go on like i never knew you
i'm awake but my world's half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without all i'm going to be is incomplete
i don't mean to drag it on
but i can't seem to let you go

gotta let you go
it's a sad day
but some good will come of it i guess
and maybe it will be for the best
as you walk away
i know-i gotta let you go

Sunday-means tomorrow's monday. then tuesday, then wednesday. and the beat goes on. i should get started on my work. but i'm so distracted-my stomach's perpetually growling and my mind's constantly straying-shopping. lol. this retail theraphy business is pretty good stuff-that only applies if you're not broke though. oh damn.i forgot to write the tastebudds article. wokieez.i'll have to motor. toodles!

twisted taste: melted nutella on toast
Mood music: incomplete- backstreet boys

*shy that way

Saturday, May 07, 2005
treat me good

you can treat me good
anytime you like.

Big noise was fun! surprisingly. to think i wanted to skip it-that would be extremely irresponsible. so yeah, i went anyway. did some shopping with adelle and cheered up abit. something makes me very nervous everytime i'm at school. anxious-excited. i know why. i just dont feel like admitting it. self-denial is a very dangerous thing.

big noise would be have awkward if liz and ry werent there too.coz like.theyre the ones i hangout with during drama. and like, it was kinda funny coz we were debating whether or not to do the silly performance we thought of. lol. we went ahead with it.lol talk abt spontaniety.is that how you spell that wordd?

i realized i am a very lucky girl. i have awesome friends-adelle, mich, trish and josh. theyre really the nicest people around-always so sweet and caring.i love you guys. it's like. i appreciated sooo much today when i needed a hug and i yearned to see them during big noise. and seeing them was like such sweet relief! and i got my hugs-thanks guys. and during the dancing, i realized i was so 'free' so brave because they were there-not to judge.but to be silly and dance along.lol. they just make everything seem sunshinier.=)

and i'm thankful for the blessings...

twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: treat me good- bachelor girl

*shy that way

Wednesday, May 04, 2005
gooodie

TODAYYY...is the best day ever! hehehe.BESTEST BESTEST BESTEST. heheheehe.
k.sorry for the one line entries. im just tooo happpppy to blog much.

twisted taste: horfun!
Mood music: do something -britney spears

*shy that way

not too good

aii. i dont like this one bit. not at all.=(

twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: why cant i - liz phair

*shy that way

Sunday, May 01, 2005
close my eyes...

there's one thing i haven't really felt before. but i want to, so so badly.
this 1 thing.

viccc, you're wayyyy in over your head now. how the hell did you get yourself into this, i have NO idea. ohmygod. this is not good. understooded? N-O-T G-O-O-D. in my opinion, you need another kill the wabbit plan.except this time it isn't a wabbit. it's more likeeee.. hmm. no idea. something else. still. PUT THE PLAN INTO ACTION NOW. yes vic. you've done it once, you can do it again. it's now or never (this isnt going well) you hv to be strong and be confident that you can do this.

(chants) i can do this.

twisted taste: dinner
Mood music: close my eyes-jordan knight

*shy that way