Thursday, June 30, 2005
dont give up
I am For You
Something's very wrong here
Your heart has frozen over
and something's very strange here
You've lost all desire
The comfort we create to prove
We're something
But we're starving
Screaming in the night cause you want answers
From the one
And there is hope again
Don't give up, your not thinking
Don't give up, just keep seeking
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you
Come and take my face or forever I
Will walk alone
And all the same mistakes
Cause I know you, I deny you
Days go by and choices still remain forever
Right and wrong is black and white
The illusions of this world
And there is hope again
I send myself to you
Yes always and always
I send my love to you
You found today, found today,
You found today, saw today
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: i am for you-waking ashland
*shy that way
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
i've heard it all before
I went to collect my o level cert today and bought cds! yayyy! okay, i'm trying desperately to get over it and enjoy beinggg...alone!=)
well i saw mr josef today at crez and it was fun, like, he was a friend.=) and it was just great talking to him about random stuffs and yeah. it was greaaat. then i met dad for lunch and CD SHOPPING. omg-i had NO idea the faders had an album! so when i saw it i just HAD to get it. i'm listening to it now and i'm loving it alot so far. whooopieee. i like the killer's album too and i haven't finished listening the the used's album. but i KNOW its just gonna be awesome.
too bad skye sweetnam's album was sold out. and dave matthews band's new album isn't out in singapore yet. talk about crapppy! but yeah. i can't wait to get it! buying original cds is SO much funner than pirated ones. it just is. hahaah.=P i have such fuzzy logics.
just let me get over it.
twisted taste: apple juice
Mood music: Jump- the faders
*shy that way
Monday, June 27, 2005
never gets easier
it never gets easier.it just gets worse.somehow i knew it'd happen. you know, we'd talk less even when the distance between us is so much lesser. i always knew things sorta had this irony around it. so why should i be upset?
daddy just came hom-i made him eat the strawberry and cream cake. he liked it! he had seconds. hehe. talk about superdoooper success. okay, technically, the cake should have beeeen a sponge but dear vic had to completely miss out the fact that there was actually a sponge cake recipe and, used a butter cake recipe instead. therfore, its dense and since i had to refrigerate it because of the cream, it's kinda hard.but i likee it.sorta.lol.
haha, this is what you call...feeling too much when the feeling is too little, possibly even, barely there.
twisted taste: strawberries and cream cake
Mood music: costello-straylight run
*shy that way
Saturday, June 25, 2005
baby its youu
i have something to say.simple and sweet
i am home.=)
yayyyy.lemme hear you screaaam! hehehe. i'm mad. and high,possibly from all that laughing. =)
twisted taste: nothingg
Mood music:baby it's you-jojo
*shy that way
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
overload
strange fear i havent felt for yearsthe boy is coming and im close to tearsi cant let go...of you now.ohmygod, can't say no.i'm on overload in my head.i love starbursts! gummy jumble!=)
i had a weird dream last night.i dreamt you wanted to read this.
twistedsay that fate's coming to side with meit's been so long on my shelf.its a one way ticket to a mad man situation.the tension is incredible,boy im in chargeyou know how i feel for youwill you stop or will you just keep goingplease dont say no.twisted taste: starbursts! for breakfast. yumm.
Mood music: overload-sugababes
*shy that way
Friday, June 17, 2005
un-forever
Un-forever
Read the stories of the stars
As I recite to you my poem of love
You'll find the illustrations in my heart
Along with that dedication at the start
Listen to the song of the moon
While I breathe you my melody of hurt
The lyrics are unwritten by your smile
And soon, the notes shall disappear
Take these jellybeans in my hand
Count each one as you pick them
Each color, a different tune
Sink into a memory of kaleidoscopes
Rainbow stained forevers
Unbroken and Unjudged
Until we never fall apart.
Paint the picture of the winds
And I will dance the ballet of the angels
Each step, I'll be closer to your core
Every turn, and I will know you more
Take these jellybeans in my hand
Count each one as you pick them
Each color, a different tune
Sink into a memory of kaleidoscopes
Rainbow stained memories
Unbroken and Unjudged
Until we never fall apart.
You don't seem captivated
You don't seem impressed
You don't seem to understand
What I've tried to tell you is simple.
But I don't mean a thing to you.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music:only gift that i need- dashboard confessional
*shy that way
Monday, June 13, 2005
never.
you don't always have to get what you want. i thought i wanted it so badly, but i stopped and thought about it. i've got my friends here-the awesomest of the lot. and great mnc mates (chickflicks ok!) and a (usually) awesome sister here.and a smarttypants one back home. my parents love me so damn much. i'm not struck with illness, i have the chance to study abroad, and study what i like. i get alot more than i'm wishing for. so i see that i have no excuse to want more. not when the thing i want is just to satisfy me emotionally or just because. it's too lousy an excuse. i don't need anyone to complete me more than i already am. yes-i shall repeat and believe this. i shall. i will and i must.
because i've been a bitch to myself lately.
lalala...the power of positive thinking. lol. let's just pray it sticks around.=)
hopefully.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: blue and yellow by the used
*shy that way
Sunday, June 12, 2005
miserable
because i'm miserableexams.exams.exams. so not looking forward to it. i desperately want to go home though. no, i don't really actually miss home. i just-like home. home. h.o.m.e. hhhooommmeeee.
can i drown? do you ever get that feeling you're so full and bloated you can't breathe? and you feel sickly heavy and sickly stuffed and unsightly ugly.and just disgusting? and then you wish you hadn't eaten and you want to throw your whole body away.because you just hate HATE FHATE it. well, if you haven't, lucky you. positive thinking is such bullshit when you're feeling like a walking mistake. nothing fits, everything sticks. nothing falls nice, and your hair sucks and it's so superficial and you know it, but you can't bring yourself to do anything about it. it's like your caught in your own stupid vicious cycle of being a attention grabbing bitch. and you're insecurity mocks you in your face. you bloody fat bitch.
oh well. breaaathe.
oh wait, i can't, i'm too full remember?twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: bike scene- taking back sunday
*shy that way
Thursday, June 09, 2005
over it?
tomorrows friday.i used to like it. anyway, i've got my monologue exam tomorrow. not good. well it's only fun coz we get to dress up under the pretext that we have to you know, get into character. hahah, but it's just another excuse to dress up. skanky or not, is another thing.
i love my bolster. that was so random i know.but yes, i do! it's always here for me. =) anyway. the point of this entry is to ramble.and now that i've done that-i shall go. and think about dinner. i love dark chocolate. random random.=) anddd cold air stinks.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: that song by gavin degraw
*shy that way
Monday, June 06, 2005
skeleton boy
The awkward silence between us
Would you say it's just put up to play the bluff
So that no one will see how we truly feel
And yet we're suppose to know what's real
i dont feel too good. a little under the weather. no work for me tonight-excuses excuses. just me and lisa loeb. i reckon she's amazing. oh-and my foodie magazine. i seek comfort in the unexcited, but the calming.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: hurricane by lisa loeb & nine tails
*shy that way
Thursday, June 02, 2005
bad news
leave me alone. go away. i NEVER want to hear tht name EVER again.
I NEVER WANT TO HEAR YOUR NAME EVER AGAIN.
so go away. i'll be fine.
read these lips. NEVER.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music:you're so last summer-TBS
*shy that way
