Wednesday, September 28, 2005
bored
today has been literally- eat and sleep. for real.
i woke up at 12, had lunch, watched tv, ate, slept, ate dinner, watched tv, read, ate and now i'm blogging. hah! talk about taking full advantage of being sick. But the stomach still does feel absolutely weird. it's sort of like, hurting and it's annoyingly painful. i sleep like a prawn.
i don't like hilary duff's new song. it's spastic. ohmygod, who the hell cares where you end up clubbing? i am abosolutely random.
ahhhh. =( that's how i feel. yeaps. truly. it's like bittersweet emotions. happy-yes, contented. but there's this little monster sitting in a dark corner. frowning... it's not very happy. and what better way to cheer myself up than listening to absolutely sad music!
turn off all of the lights, then i breakdown and cry.twisted taste: spag, fried rice, sauteed chicken, milo
Mood music: ghetto gospel- 2pac & elton john
*shy that way
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
how much do you commit yourself
absolutely horrible to be sick at a time like this
a time like what?A time when you should be playing hard because you're gonna have to study soon!=( absolutely imperfect.
it's amazing how many songs remind me of you. it's like, every other song does a good job of doing that. which makes my job as a heartless bitch a little more difficult.
you'd thank god for that wouldn't you? so fall asleep tonight, cause that makes me closer to you
twisted taste: corn chips, doritos dippas
Mood music: it's my life- no doubt
*shy that way
wo hai pa
Promises of never crying
The existent tears have broken
Every song speaks out loud
Drowning in conflicts we've created
Hurting me more since
I've taken the burden off you
And locked it up inside
Things i feel you never knew
But i couldn't say any more
Than i've tried to show
I've gotten your directions all wrong
Or so it seems
They all say it could be perfect
Caught in between two ideas
Of freedom and pride
Loving arms to call my own
Convinced myself to let go
Even if these feelings have grown
Compromise this heart
Useless tears have fallen for you
You'll never be here fast enough
But at the back of my mind
There's a fairytale needing you to start.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: qing tian- jay zhou
*shy that way
Sunday, September 25, 2005
qing tian
yesterday was awesome in many ways.
my friends proved once again, that there was always a way to put a smile on my face. and for that, i thank you guys. and josh's sister-for being a sister to me too. =)
it's a dangerous game to play.I backed out of your game-you win. I can't do this anymore. But you're so lucky you have my friends who think there's something worth it in you. So we'll see how it goes i guess? But I'm ready to turn around and run and before you know, you can't lose what you've never had. neither can I.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: qing tian-jay zhou
*shy that way
Friday, September 23, 2005
alone
time to kill the fof. for real.
i'm tired and so's everyone.from hearing all the talk. so it's time to move on. to let go. and understand that whatever perceptions i had regarding this subject-was true. and this shit is b-a-n-a-n-a-s.
fuck you.
twisted taste: nothing much.
Mood music: cool-gwen stefani
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
take a chance before it's gonemy day will come.so do i just keep waiting? We all know it'll be easier if i got over myself and just opened my mouth but, then again. where's the fun in that? oh man.who am i trying to kid?
myself.twisted taste: rojak
Mood music: my day will come-kate alexa
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
buried too far down
i don't really like you
i don't
i don't really like you right now
i feel like ignoring you, hurting you, making you feel absolutely miserable.
i feel like making you wait for hours on end
so i should do ahead and do it.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music: dive right in-soty
*shy that way
friends
happpppyyyy birthdaaay mommmyyyy.=) i love you.
i'm now recovering from all the hype from the past few days. sleeping at 4.30 and waking up at 10. so not counted as beauty sleep. anyways, i love my friends. have i told you that?
meow- you better start emailing me again! i swear i will poke you when i get back if you don't! hahaha i don't get how we can email, chat on the phone, snail mail and STILL have SO MUCH to talk about. we talk alot don't we? or we just remember alot. i miss you and your funny obsession with baby penguins.
twwiiiisssshhh- fishfishfishfishfishfish. i have a fish who hates swimming. hahaha! I MISS YOU FISH even though i kinda just saw you like...1/2 hr ago. heh. i like school coz we get to hangout. at THE spot. babes, i think it's getting hot out, so it's gonna be yucky sitting there. we need a new SPOT.
omg i just realized i have so many people i want to write to i'm kinda lazy. fine i shall continue
jolyn- i miss you cupcake. 'nuff said. we need need need need to hangout. so pretty please go steal the air ticket from ... and FLY HERE NOW. haha. =)
miccch- i love lit lessons with you. and all the times we tease each other about random things. and the skittles! ooooh the pretty skittles in the glass bottle that i FINISHED. =P. awayy awayyy, let the rainbows shineee.
josssh- IS MY TWIN.hahaha okok.i'm kidding. he's not. but you're my aweesome frieeennndd. you know that right!=)
you are my reasonyou are the air i'm breathin'ask who's in my heart...you are.no matter how fari'll be where you are.twisted taste: sushi!=)
Mood music: right now-atomic kitten
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
irritating people
awwwmann. you are so irritating. i mean, you would'nt know it because i don't ever show it. but you are! and being around you makes me feel bad. so i should do myself a favour and stop being around you. i don't want you having such control because you obviously don't derserve it. being nice about being a prick is even prickier.
yesterday was absolutely fun! trish and tee came over! hahh girl's day in. tee stayed over and we chatted about alot of things. random more often than not. and lots of awwww's during the sad sweet parts of the chick flicks. hahah trish loved harry potter! and the BROWNIES.i have adoring fans! hehe. thanks babes. i reaaaaly had fun.
and tee and i took spastic photos. spasssstic. but oh-so-hilarious. tee is my yandao boyfriend. heheeh. aren't i lucky!
delle,mich&josh.wish u guys were here.
let's get ready for round 2 tonight! whooohooo!=)
twisted taste: lunccch
Mood music:catch your wave-the click five
*shy that way
Sunday, September 18, 2005
smiling with tears in my eyes
i just want what's minei don't need another love songnobody loves me like you donobody else could ever take your placeand we all laugh at vic coz the one thing she always said she didn't want to, has now happened.
and she likes it!
twisted taste: brownies!
Mood music: nobody loves me like you do-bellefire
*shy that way
Saturday, September 17, 2005
raining
loving you, was what i was trying to do.we finally had out chickflick night! Clara, Jolene and me. okay apologies for not choosing the sappy tearjerker chick flicks! i will next weeek. hehe. but omg-you have to agree, that crying session during the notebook was the ultimate.
i had tons of fun.we all bonded-connected. and it's probably something ron nev
er would have expected result from a simple mnc project. but it did, and i'm thankful and happy for that! whoopieeee
today it was really sunny but i wasn't on tram 16. and that meeting in one hour would have to wait.
twisted taste: dinner
Mood music: what hurts the most-bellefire
*shy that way
Friday, September 16, 2005
no more crying
i'm terribly bored. i need to go to sleep.then time will pass faster and fast forward to tomorrow. then i can go explore again!=)
met mich and tee and mich's godbrother for lunch today. a very interesting lunch. hehh. we had a COLES lunch!!!=) it was quite funny. like we got this jumbo tub of pasta and potato salad. and all shared. and i bought sushi since i'm allergic to wheat. it was fun.sitting at the donut king table and eating. then! mich's head got hit by a ball. lol. ok-sorry mich i didn't mean to announce it to the whole world. heh. but those assholes really ought to be shot. lol. or as tee says 'go back to your...' nevermind.i shan't say it. but it IS funny tee.=P
i miss adelle. we live so closeby but we never see each other anymore.
twissssshh.do hangout on monday.
yeapsyeaps.
i haven't seen mich in four days.so we had alot to catch up onnnn.
hahaha can you imagine! we're crazyyy.
twisted taste: choc icecream & crunchie
Mood music: never say goodbye-jojo
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
i miss you
low-tides aren't nice. the musky purplish seaweed exudes this extremely foul stench. and as you walk out, you breathe in the fresher air, and the smell leaves, a little futher with each step. then you're out by the jetty, watching the clouds go by, the sight of the unwashed, uncleaned, unloved beach out of your head. and all you see is what's in front of you.
that very moment.so why did it have to end?
the holidays officially begin today!=) meaning, i'm gonna end up broke but! it always means more laughter to spare. laughalot.
twisted taste: dinner
Mood music: my eyes burn-matchbook romance
*shy that way
Monday, September 12, 2005
glitter doll
YIPPPEEEE! -ONE MORE PAPER.
okay, i sound as if i've had exams all week or something.truth is. it began today and it ends...tomorrow!
2 papers. screwed one up. i can't do that for lit!
the beeeaaaccchhhhh is screaming my naaameeeee.
pop princess//glitterdoll*can we start something new, just between me and you.
baby turn your love up loud
twisted taste: choc ice creeeaaamm
Mood music:pop princess- the click five
*shy that way
Saturday, September 10, 2005
cause a scene
whoohoo. vic is officially not a geek anymore.
wahaha-right.
okay technically i am still sorta like a geek coz the guilt trippin thing is working waaay overtime!
*dies*
okay- i did maths and sorta lit. hehh. it's not my fault that the sun came out and distracted me. the weather has this huge impact on me.i swear. hahaha. ryan says i'm morbid. bleagh
i love extremes of weathers.
supeeerrrr sunnnnyyy sunshineyyy baby.
OR
gloooomyyyy dark, cold thunder lightning-the works!
go figure.=)
perfect night for the beach. clear skies...cool breeze, the stars are out and so's the moon.smiling. a BIG CRESCENT SMILE.
but i'm home.
there's always next time right?
twisted taste: palmiers
Mood music: the first single- the format
*shy that way
Friday, September 09, 2005
its you
twirls of rainbows circle around
like a neverending ray or sunshine
these feelings are bound to hit the ground
but i'll hold onto the treasure and find
one day
someday
you'll be mine
twisted taste: soy choc icecream
Mood music:could it be-christy carlson romano
*shy that way
Thursday, September 08, 2005
together-not
my thoughts are choking on you.
together- doesn't feel right at all
together- holding hands will fall.i'm fine. really. REEEAALLLYY. uh-yeah i am.
i hate essays. i hate mondays. i hate tuesdays. and most of all. i hate
wednesdays. i hate thursdays and i hate fridays.
i'm just being a grumpy bitch.
sorry.
go away. all around is fast moving. surrounded by so many things. GO AWAY.
twisted taste:
Mood music:
*shy that way
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
unwell
ok-so i DID get my ass off to biology lab today. seriously-i was contemplating on skipping. luckily i didn't coz i realized that since it was just the write up on the 2 pracs we've had. i would STILL have to get my ass there SOMEDAY ANYWAY. bleagh.
i'm sleeeepy. veryveryvery sleeeepy.and hungry. if you didn't know. i'm just about as weird as weird can get.i get EXTREMELY hungry when i'm sick. for real.=) i know right. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. i need sugar like NOW. chocolate, starbursts, tarte tartine, palmiers, banana pancakes...bring it on baby. ahhhh.i shall go indulge in self-pity (since i'm like...SICK) and get alll the sinfuls later. i heart melbourne and it's wide variety of thrash food. for reaaaal.
frannie's on ebay. i want to ebay. shopping anyone!?
shopppinnngggg. i swear.my mind is not working right now.terribly sorry for the incomprehensible dronings. dumdeedumdumdumb.
i've got a secret, you won't believe it
i was put here for you. twisted taste: Vick's Vapordrops
Mood music: the humdrum of the library oh...and my heavy breathing from the damned nasal congestion. hah!
*shy that way
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
dont.
you can treat me good anythime you likeyou can treat me good anytime at alla little care is all i'm asking fordon't lie to mepatronize me...don't neglect meforget mebe angry at mesay things to offend.just don't.
twisted taste: palmiers baked by me!
Mood music: treat me good-bachelor girl
*shy that way
Monday, September 05, 2005
thrown
fallen for, all the lies, alibis, that you saidleft me holding on by the last thread.you threw my heart awaythat's the price that i paid.stop, stare, and watch me burnsomeday it will be your turn.so does he like me or is he just a slime bag?
yes, no...no, yestwisted taste: horrible liquorice
Mood music: nothing
*shy that way
Sunday, September 04, 2005
attacked
oooh whee.it's the attack of the grumpiness. please note how ironic it is when it's especially sunny today and i'm feeling very un-sunny. It's quite apt to say that 'i'm only happy when it rains' should really be my theme song. I mean-what more evidence do you need?
I feel like running away. Into the sunshine, smile so widely til the sunlight bounces off my cheeks and reflect into my eyes. In a bright pink tee and a bright blue skirt. and silver sandals. and a flower in my hair. by the beach. drown in you. Icecream cones by the water, dangling my legs off the jetty. the wind in my hair and brushing against my skin. the seawater tickling my feet. quite pleasant-quite dreamy.
nothing could compare to this. cept perhaps, walking in the rain.
but wait!
i
love maths remember?
it's not fair how you have this control over my moods. It's like how i'm going to feel for the next 3 hours depends on what you decide to say to me. goddammit.
twisted taste: nothing
Mood music:in this skin-jessica simpson
*shy that way
Saturday, September 03, 2005
unboyfriend
now is a neverending thing.hello world.=)
vic ought to be doing maths now. but she's distracted
and she's tired. clubbing is bad for your health.
saturday is the laziest day ever. nono-sunday too.
thanks jolyn.for everything,=) *muacck*
and i had fun yesterday guys!=) *bigghuggg*
i like the rain!
unboyfriend.twisted taste: caramel frapp.
Mood music:anyone but me-lindsay lohan
*shy that way
Thursday, September 01, 2005
full
was it all in my head?you were all i never wantedbut i sure want you now.i want you.Watched tim's drama performance today. it was so hilarious. tons of slapping of each other. i totally feel their pain, i mean, their faces were RED! ouch right.
tomorrow-MY TURN.my drama exam. i am not really panicking.thankgod. but i'm still sorta worried. and well-can you blame me? and i hope so badly, that ron does NOT have pms tomorrow when we show him our advertising ideas.
they say someone's gonna get hurt. well-i hope it isn't me. twisted taste: popcorn chicken & an apple
Mood music: all i never wanted-diana degarmo
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