Sunday, April 30, 2006
splish splash
This is hardly a good thing. not it's not. but it gets me all weird and happy. pfft.
finally went out today, no more stayhome sundays! it was rainy, which kinda made me NOT wanna go out, but i did eventually. met vee and keith for dinn and dessert. oh and good ole juicy gossip session. apparently i've been unknowingly 'dating' alot of guys. haha. good to know huh. lol.
i ate up my easter bunny. no more bunny for me.=( as i stared at the bunny's ears, i was contemplating NOT eating it. but, i gave into temptation! haha, so i gobbled it up, while having yet another gossip session with my little sisterr. i know. my life is so awesome. heh.
yeahright.
i'm currently suffering a sugarLOW.
twisted taste: a bite of vee's choc crossiant
Mood music: lovelovelove-tristan prettyman
*shy that way
sunday mornings
it's a rainy sunday morning. veryvery cold too.
sunday morning-i should be having banana pancakes drizzled with maple syrup, topped with sauteed bananas. or maybe french toast! but no, i'm having a mental block. workworkwork.
viccc...start worrking!
truthfully, i can't ignore you, coz i've been waiting for you.
truthfully, i'm kinda happy that you showed up.
truthfully, i'm finding out what's you.
i'm smiling again.twisted taste:nothing
Mood music: truthfully-lisa loeb
*shy that way
Saturday, April 29, 2006
trampoline & merry-go-rounds
yesterday was a break that was well worth waiting for.=)
keo did a mini photoshoot thingy for me, which was super cool but being a shy dingdong that i am, he couldnt really take many photos. hahah. typical me.
well classes were rubbish as usual but i love the people in my professional writing class. hahah i swear nicola and i spend so much time gossiping. hahah beau and liz had a minor incident, laughing about chicken porridge and tumbleweed(?!!) i know. hahha. then... i went to watch a moovie! final destination 3 to be exact. it was cool, hanging out with 3 guys. wahaha.
well, it was quite a disappointment but then again, i'd gladly blame the seats we had and the fact that i've watched final destination 2, so yeah. but throw in some laughter, rain, HOTstones and icecream and you get yourself a nightout worth writing about.
the whole world just fades away, being with you gets me that way.you've got me.
twisted taste:nothing but i do need brekkie
Mood music: interstate love- stone temple pilots
*shy that way
Thursday, April 27, 2006
hmmm
this may seem a little rude
it may come across as a little proud.
maybe it might make you feel like hitting me on the head
but
would you like to make my day?prettyplease.twisted taste:dinner
Mood music: mai ya tang- jay chou
*shy that way
breakfast
breakfast time.
i eat sauerkraut with everything. my ham sandwich, my tuna sandwich, my fried rice... yup! you get the picture. what is sauerkraut you ask. well, it's presevred cabbage i a jar of vinegar with juniper berries. sounds like something your grandmother keeps at the back of the fridge that smells like a fart right? hehe. well, it's not the best smelling of things, but it's just the vinegar so if you like vinegar, then you shouldn't really have a problem. i LOVE vinegar, the more the merrier. so you see, i have no qualms about keeping that jar of thing in my fridge. yum. and besides, it's screwed tight la, you don't get an waft of stinky air when you open the fridge. you should trust me on this. and it's ORGANIC. so yay, it's all good.
those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed.i felt like waking up early today. fresh start, do some work, not panic and sit here fidgeting all night long. so i got up at 9 oclock. in the morning. hehe. it was good, i had breakfast (with sauerkraut) but i accidentally knocked the plate out of my hand while sitting down so, i had to make another. i know, how clumsy can a baffoon at 9 am get. very. =)
you're gonna have a good day!twisted taste: tuna sandwich with sauerkraut
Mood music:hurricane-lisa loeb
*shy that way
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
you like icecream, i like icecream.funny day. boring day. productive day but still.
i'm pretty sad now. =( i miss the O.C and well, something else. but anyways, it's good i don't feel my geek conscience creeping up on me. i still feel bad though. no faair. i bet you don't feel bad.
oh vic, you're a silly girl.twisted taste: icecreeam
Mood music: truthfully-lisa loeb
*shy that way
love love love
EVERYONE'S IN LOVE.Nisa's in
love with her AAB (hehe)
Nic's in
love with her trip to Japan
Delle's in
love with her hmmmm.
I'm in
loveeeee with the
sunshine.
so can i please go out and play? I don't know what's stopping me from going. See, on one hand, i know i've got superdooper friends to go out with. But i'm too lazy to call anyway. and everyone knows they're not gonna call me, so that's it. deadend.
on the other hand, I don't feel like going out with anyone either. haha [no i still love you guys, who don't call]. i just want to go out and bask in the sunshine. But then again, i wouldn't really mind company....hmm. but i'm a confused individual so yes. not helping in times where such urgent decisive action needs to take place.
i've lost my sugar high. well...just for now. how high can you get when you KNOW you've got a bloody essay to do. like, right now. i just wanna go out and play, walk on the jetty and worry i might fall in, though i know i won't.
i'm easily amused.
i was made to shine on.twisted taste: nothingg
Mood music: what you waiting for -gwen stefani
*shy that way
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Hide and Seek MeSay hi to me
This is just my pretty please
My eyes wander
To daydreams we'll see
Hold my hand,
Count to ten
I promise this ride is just about to begin
Close my eyes
Count to ten
Open them and I hope to see you again
*
Beach umbrellas
Stars at night
Sneaking out
But it's pretty all right
Water sprinklers
Dark til light
Gaint popsicles
But it's pretty all right.
We'll make it back
Just before the alarm goes
Pinky promise me
Make sure no one knows
Hold my hand,
Count to ten
I promise this ride is just about to begin
Close my eyes
Count to ten
Open them and I hope to see you again
Repeat *
I think I've sunk it way too far
Come out come out
Where ever you are
One more time, we'll count til ten
Promise me you'll find me again.
Twisted taste: banana muffins
Mood music: wishing heart- lisa loeb
*shy that way
Saturday, April 22, 2006
mooving
im sleepy. 5 movies, one night. one couch. hahaha
funny. the ring 2 wasn't really all that scary. hmm, down to earth was fantastic as usual.=) and i finally watched Honey! its just the dance moves that appeals, oh and jessica alba. but i dont agree with the jessica alba bit.
anyways, i'm soooo sleepy.
i'm mooving soon. im excited. the new place is pretty swanky. hee.=)
okay, mr p and i are tired. so i'm gonna start thinking about my op-ed and hit the bed.
it's still a pretty
sparkly day.
twisted taste: solo.
Mood music: nothing
*shy that way
Friday, April 21, 2006
sugarrush
its such a pretty
sunny day
and i'm getting high, feeling all sparkly inside.
well, it IS a tad too cold for my liking, but the sun just makes you feel all warm and snuggly.
sugarsugarsugarrush.
today's a sparkly day!=) like
summer,
only better.
and we'll be falling in love to the music.
baby, you're my sugar rush.
i get weak and talk too much.=)twisted taste: cadbury chocolate chips & apple juice
Mood music: ...to the music- the a*teens
*shy that way
Thursday, April 20, 2006
i felt smart carrying the pile of books in my arms and the whole preppy look. hehe, cheap thrills. but i did!
and as old as i may be now (ahem, 17goingon18 mindyou), i still LOVE notepassing. haha. it was fun! and keith was being mean. but i can;t eleborate because he'll say i'm mean.
im so not.
ohwells. im excited. hehe. about nothing. i just am. kinda like a sugar rush. i sound like i'm 10 yrs old and tomorrow's the day i get to ride the carousel and eat cottoncandy. well, im not. i feel the same kinda high though.
i ate pancakes with bananas and maple syrup and icecream. that could be what's causing the sugar high.
or, it could be the pony that's sitting on my table, with her pinkpink sparkly hair.
butbutbut!
it's really not. i stutter, i stumble, like i've got nothing to say.
'cause i'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect.twisted taste: dinner!
Mood music: shy that way-jason mraz & tristan prettyman
*shy that way
carousels
you know your stunning
absolutely stunning
and I'm running always running
and now I'm crying
you know only cause I'm caring
and if you were more daring maybe you'd stop staring
and come over and talk to me
and tell me about how you've been waiting patiently
and how you tried but I just turned away
and I'll say,
"yeah well you know, I'm shy that way" the mother duck said "goodnight"
and the little ducklings, they went "quack" but you went "squeak"twisted taste: nothingg
Mood music: fools like me-lisa loeb
*shy that way
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
tweedles
hmmm.
when you put adelle and vic together
you get ALOT of laughing. by alot, i mean, alot.=)
andand
pants that make you fall off your tram seat. hehe
i had fun today.
did you?=)
twisted taste: boba!
Mood music:i'm coming out-amerie
*shy that way
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
bunny
i reallly
honestly
truthfully
belong in the wrong
era.
and tim agrees.=)
well, i have found a dress for my vespa (in the future) andand its only ONE of the dresses. i will search for more. so i will be well prepared when i get my PINK vespa.=)
it's so weird how everything in the store fit me well and looked cute. dresses from the 1950s and all. they were seriously pretty. so so lovely. i wanted them all. told you-wrong era.
shimmmmmyshimmmmy quarterturn.
vicky has a crush.=)twisted taste: moremoremore cookies
Mood music: shimmy shimmy quarter turn-hellogoodbye
*shy that way
Monday, April 17, 2006
his heart microscopic
same song; second chorus.it's a BRIGHT & SUNSHINEY day.
and i'm gonna spend today with myself again. i dont mind it really.=) i like being alone. sometimes. this is one of those times that i like it. hehe. i don't understand how anyone could possibly enjoy company 24/7. it's just too tiring. in this twisted way. it is. hahahaha
ohkaaay.
i always feel veryvery compelled to go out and play whenever i see the sun. i just can't stand knowing i'm stuck inside while everyone else is soaking up all the sun's gloriousness. it's just NOT FAIR. so therefore, i AM going out later. i wish i could bring mr p. he's so cute. and huggable. andandand. yes. fluffy. but he's a tad too big.=( poor mr p. i know how it feels like to feel like you're missing out coz of your SIZE. trust me.
today as i was lying in bed, lazing under the verypink duvet, i have come to the conclusion. it's just too complicated dating someone that everyone knows. like, if you dated someone that was part of your regular friendship circle. it's just tooooo complicated and tiring. ACTUALLY... i came to the conclusion that i DON'T want to date. well, not now. it's fun the way it is. being single and erm, single!=) well this might all change in due time. you KNOW i change my mind like SNAP. but hey, i've been pretty loyal to this conclusion i made for the past month over. it's alll goood.
let go, it's gonna be allright.
i know it's hard when your hope is gone, but you've gotta keep holding on. twisted taste:choc chip cooookies
Mood music punk rock 101-bowling for soup
*shy that way
Sunday, April 16, 2006
sparklysparklysparkles
ohdear. i crack myself up!
anyways, i spent today with myself. ooh, what fun!=) i had tons of fun walking around acland street and trying on clothes that i didn't buy and boots that were too tight.
then, i fell in love.=)
he was tan, bold and veryvery sexy. and he loooked so good next to me. i thought he was too short, but somehow it worked out great. but i didn't get him.=(
no money. haha. i so wanted that jacket!
oh wells! then i came home. and realized i am a dumbdumb. shhhh. i can't let you in on the secret coz it's just too funny.
josh and i agree that if anyone knows, they'll reckon i'm mad. so shhhh.
let's keep it on the downlow. hehe
I AM A HAPPY GIRL!
twisted taste:cooookies
Mood music:i'd do anything-simple plan
*shy that way
Thursday, April 13, 2006
you bite me
I want to write you a letter.
a long long long letter.
i'll tell you how my day went
and how often i thought of you
i'll tell you how you remind me
of food that makes me smile
and how the little things that make me laugh
would probably make you laugh too.
i'd tell you that i'll always be here
just a call away, closer than you think
we could eat icecream while we laugh
over the phone at 5 am in the morning.
or! we could just gossip.
i wouldn't mind whatever we do
hey! we could watch the same movie as we talk on the phone
i'll let you choose what you want to watch
so i should get down to writing that letter.=)
but what's the point. twisted taste: nothing
Mood music:shimmy shimmy quarter turn-hellogoodbye
*shy that way
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
i had a very disturbing dream l'd last night. haha if i told you, you'd raise your eyebrows and go 'what?!' and then at the back of your mind, you'd think. 'she's still not over it yet huh' and then you might try guessing the extent to which it really got to me.
don't guess. i'll tell you.it got me. grabbed me by the head and shook me around. told me lies and fed me dreams. stomped on my arms and legs so i can't run away even if i wanted to. it left me alone for a day or two, but the bruises remained and when they were healing, it came around again and hugged me, then laughed in my face.
your eyes tell me the joke's on me.i am fine. i am not hurting. i am not screaming for your attention. i am just having a momentary relaspe.
it's 11.11pm. twisted taste: lychee lollies
Mood music:
*shy that way
Monday, April 10, 2006
capture me
were they wasted words
and did they mean a thing?
someday, i'll just keep pretending
that you'll stay dreaming of a different ending.You can be certain that I'm with you when I sing
You could have nothing but you'll still have me
A long time ago, we used to be friends
If ever again, a greeting I send to you,
Short and sweet to the soul is all I intend bottomline: i frustrate myself.
twisted taste: bobapearl
Mood music: something i never had-lindsay lohan
*shy that way
Sunday, April 09, 2006
syrup
the 'peach flavour' on the cough syrup bottle lied to me. peach flavour my ass. it's so alcohol-ish. it's sicck. =(
yuckyuckyuck.
and, there's this terribly bitter taste in my mouth. and it's been lingering there for the past day. it's positively nauseating. not that you needed to know but yeah.
you didn't really need to know that. hehe.
i feel like a car just ran me over.
oh wells. the musical officially ended yesterday. but it only means that the postproductionparties have just begun. my bestest girls in the world came lastnight, for the last show. last night's audience was the best ever. they were soooo supportive and they laughed at the show. so that really made us feel psyched since we were deadbeat from the matinee.
so YIIPPPPEEEE.=) i guess its something i'll neverever forget.=)
ohhh and I GOT FLOWERS. hehehe. from my dajie and from Mich&fishie&delle. *bigfathuggg. I LOVE FLOWERS. hehhe. prettypretty pink,lightpinkand redd flowers.
twisted taste: cough syrup
Mood music: nothing
*shy that way
Friday, April 07, 2006
after the opening yesterday, i now have no voice. haha. oh the irony. and i have THREE more shows. someone please give me a 'get my voice back quick' remedy. NOW. thankyou. i've been taking panadeine and difflam and tons of water. i feel so bloated. i think i'm going to get some organic apricots and raisins later. oh, and maybe apples too. just in case.=)
oh well. i'm pretty excited about tonight. everyones coming to watcch! hahah, but im feeling slightly embarrassed with my extremely SHORT dress. grrr. oh and the simple fact that i'm speaking in chinese with a very HOARSE VOICE since I HAVE NO VOICE. oh lordy. this isn't good.
you know what's the weirdest thing. i haven't written in my diary for ages. it's time the pages weren't filled with the same old rants and the same old scenarios. hmm. i'll get round to that.=)
WISH ME LUCCCCCK.
twisted taste:fruit toast and a spoonful of nutella
Mood music: signs-justin & snoop dogg
*shy that way
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
my heart is dead, it's way past beating.
let's both stop breathing.
i hate to see you tremble.
tell me your goodbyes.
i am this close to screaaaming.i am soooo stressed. i can feel it creeping up my spine. the show starts in 2 days. i have work due. and im constantly feeling aboslutely hungry. like an itch to just constantly stuff food into my mouth, and fill up my body with absolute trash. i am so freaking fat it's not funny.
someone save me.
grrr. i am tireddd.
but terribly oh-so-excited. IM GONNA BE A STAAAAR.=)
and again, big hugs to YOU. you know who you areee my favourite leo=)
twisted taste:satay chicken
Mood music: young and aspiring-underoath
*shy that way
Monday, April 03, 2006
once upon a time,
was a long time ago.
4 more days to showtime. I'M PSYCHED! so everyone should come and watch!=) alice in wonderland. a musical. and i'm in it! haaa. i know.
oh wells. i know i think too much. i know i want too much. i know i feel too much. so i should just stop. i don't want you around anymore. not that you're around very often anyways.
suddenly i don't feel like this was very important. obviously i was wrong again. you know, you're about the only person who's able to leave me in knots and find out that at the end of the day, i don't know you. blessings in disguise.
twisted taste: chocolate soy milk
Mood music: yi ke xing-F.I.R
*shy that way
Saturday, April 01, 2006
so contagious
you cry
trying to forget
all that has happened
all that didn't.
you cry
to remember
whatever that's left
when it was right.
you cry
hoping to see
the stronger side
beneath your weakened smile
you cry
just one last time
to stand up
before you fall back down.
twisted taste: nothing much
Mood music: hands on deck-waking ashland
*shy that way
zoooming
yesterday was a disaster of certain degree. but not a calamity. haha.just pretty disastrous. but it ended up pretty fine.
i can hear the F1 race cars zooming outside, on the albert park track. i've never been to one of those races, i should go! since i live so near and all huh! SCHUMACHER! *grin
sometimes it's funny how you know that at the end of the day, you return back to that one thing, that seems to grasp you. it could be something as simple as the same song you have on replay, and it'd evoke the same feelings no matter how often you've heard it. or, it could be that one essay that you've been staring at for the past 3 weeks. or it could just be. returning to the feeling of being all alone, all over again.
but hey, i'm not alone. not that alone. not as alone as before.
maaaan, i sound so depressed. i seriously went online to check if i had any of the symptoms of depression. i doubt i've got it. but it's always a good thing to be doubly sure yes?
oh wells, the adrenaline rush the silly F1 race cars are giving me is making me feel panicky about my work. so i had better get started. and in case i forget.
thanks my favourite leo.
i look you in the eye, i try to eat your thoughts. twisted taste: cadbury with hazelnuts
Mood music: some song by FIR
*shy that way
